I'm a mother of three, five and under. I'm a wife to a perpetual student. (Seriously, just graduate already - I mean, "I support you, honey.") I'm a child to the only Father who can claim to be Perfect, and I study under Him daily in hopes of learning from the Best.
I believe in breastfeeding, natural childbirthing, cloth-diapering, co-sleeping, baby-wearing, and attachment parenting.
Compared to the bottle-feeding, Pampers-wearing, crib-sleeping, day-caring world around me, I thought maybe that qualified me as a Natural Mommy.
It doesn’t hurt like a fresh wound. It’s bothersome like a scab. It was a fresh wound on Monday. It was real. And I cried. But now it’s more like a scab. It gets brushed. Like when I slid into bed last Wednesday night and remembered how I had rested my hand upon my abdomen [...]
Filed under: The Miscarriage, The Mommy on July 18th, 2008 | 11 Comments »
Irony: an outcome of events contrary to what was, or might have been, expected. Coincidence: a striking occurrence of two or more events at one time apparently by mere chance. Providence: God, esp. when conceived as omnisciently directing the universe and the affairs of humankind with wise benevolence. ************ We agreed: we disagreed. But we [...]
Filed under: The God, The Miscarriage on July 18th, 2008 | 7 Comments »
Not on Wednesday, when I knew something was going wrong. Not on Thursday, my day in waiting. Not on Friday, when the blood tests showed the future. A bit on Saturday, the contractions hurt so badly. Not on Sunday, the day after it was over. I cried on Monday. Alone in the ultrasound room, looking [...]
Filed under: The Miscarriage, The Mommy on July 14th, 2008 | 24 Comments »
I held out hope when the bleeding started. I reassured myself when I made the appointment. I smiled comfortably while I wrapped the sheet around me and climbed up on the table. But when the small talk faded into silence, I knew. There was no labeling of baby parts. There was no recording of a [...]
Filed under: The God, The Miscarriage, The Mommy on July 10th, 2008 | 46 Comments »
