It doesn’t hurt like a fresh wound. It’s bothersome like a scab.
It was a fresh wound on Monday. It was real. And I cried. But now it’s more like a scab.
It gets brushed. Like when I slid into bed last Wednesday night and remembered how I had rested my hand upon […]
Filed under: The Miscarriage, The Mommy on July 18th, 2008 | 11 Comments »
Irony: an outcome of events contrary to what was, or might have been, expected.
Coincidence: a striking occurrence of two or more events at one time apparently by mere chance.
Providence: God, esp. when conceived as omnisciently directing the universe and the affairs of humankind with wise benevolence.
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We agreed: we disagreed. But […]
Filed under: The God, The Miscarriage on July 18th, 2008 | 7 Comments »
Not on Wednesday, when I knew something was going wrong.
Not on Thursday, my day in waiting.
Not on Friday, when the blood tests showed the future.
A bit on Saturday, the contractions hurt so badly.
Not on Sunday, the day after it was over.
I cried on Monday.
Alone in the ultrasound room, looking at an empty womb, I prayed […]
Filed under: The Miscarriage, The Mommy on July 14th, 2008 | 24 Comments »
I held out hope when the bleeding started.
I reassured myself when I made the appointment.
I smiled comfortably while I wrapped the sheet around me and climbed up on the table.
But when the small talk faded into silence, I knew.
There was no labeling of baby parts. There was no recording of a heart beat.
There was […]
Filed under: The God, The Miscarriage, The Mommy on July 10th, 2008 | 46 Comments »
