I'm a mother of three, five and under. I'm a wife to a perpetual student. (Seriously, just graduate already - I mean, "I support you, honey.") I'm a child to the only Father who can claim to be Perfect, and I study under Him daily in hopes of learning from the Best.
I believe in breastfeeding, natural childbirthing, cloth-diapering, co-sleeping, baby-wearing, and attachment parenting.
Compared to the bottle-feeding, Pampers-wearing, crib-sleeping, day-caring world around me, I thought maybe that qualified me as a Natural Mommy.
Yesterday during dinner, Levi’s cup of milk was dangerously close to the edge of the table. “Move your milk!” I cried desperately as I remembered that there was nothing protecting the carpet under his chair. He looked up at me, reached out, grabbed his cup, and wiggled it. “Levi!” Frustration was creeping in. ”Stop! You’re [...]
Filed under: The God, The Levi on August 15th, 2011 | 1 Comment »
I don’t know exactly when my life changed. I don’t know when I lost control. When the stress started mounting. When I started yelling more. Loving less. I woke up one morning and didn’t like my life anymore. The children were fighting, screaming, crying, clinging, smothering. I couldn’t demand obedience. Not even if I screamed. [...]
Filed under: Motherhood, The God on July 8th, 2010 | 13 Comments »
There. We made a decision. For the first time since we moved here almost four years ago, we know for sure what we’re doing. It’s been a very un-sure past four years. Filled with potential job offers that never finalized and real job offers that fizzled out at the last minute. I’ve searched for houses [...]
Filed under: The Daddy, The God, The News on April 21st, 2010 | 8 Comments »
I know you want Hawaii pictures. But believe it or not, it’s easier and faster to spit out written posts than to choose, edit, resize, upload, arrange, and caption picture posts. I am working on it. Promise. ———————————————————— When I woke up this morning, I was in a good mood. I went for a run. [...]
Filed under: Motherhood, The God, The Mommy on April 15th, 2010 | 8 Comments »
Yesterday, I was a horrible Mommy. Yesterday, I had horrible children. And I was so mad at God about it, I didn’t speak to Him all day. He kept trying to talk to me. But I turned a cold shoulder. He can do all things, why wasn’t He making me a better Mommy? Why wasn’t [...]
Filed under: The God, The Mommy on January 27th, 2010 | 13 Comments »
Irony: an outcome of events contrary to what was, or might have been, expected. Coincidence: a striking occurrence of two or more events at one time apparently by mere chance. Providence: God, esp. when conceived as omnisciently directing the universe and the affairs of humankind with wise benevolence. ************ We agreed: we disagreed. But we [...]
Filed under: The God, The Miscarriage on July 18th, 2008 | 7 Comments »
I held out hope when the bleeding started. I reassured myself when I made the appointment. I smiled comfortably while I wrapped the sheet around me and climbed up on the table. But when the small talk faded into silence, I knew. There was no labeling of baby parts. There was no recording of a [...]
Filed under: The God, The Miscarriage, The Mommy on July 10th, 2008 | 46 Comments »
